Currently I am 34 weeks pregnant and feeling all sorts of crazy! At first, finding out I was pregnant was some of the most exciting news ever! We learned we were having a girl and the excitement went in to overdrive. But over the past few weeks I’ve started to feel overwhelmed, sad even.
I would get in from work in the evening and my 2 year old would throw several tantrums, not listen to a word I say, and I’d be ruining around like a crazy person trying to fix dinner and run bath water with tears in my eyes! This is all before daddy makes it home by the way.
Suddenly, the idea of having another little person to care for, and change, and feed, and hold while doing dishes and laundry seemed like a lot! I kept asking myself how in the heck am I going to do this??? How are we going to do this? I went from being overjoyed to being nervous very quickly.
How would I find the time to do all of the things I currently do with my son? Would I be too tired to make dinner? How will my fiancée and I make time for each other? So many thoughts and questions were running through my mind. But After much self pep talking, prayer, and thought, I asked myself, Taresa, who are you kidding???
Of course there will be hard days, and days where you feel like your failing and doing everything wrong. Who doesn’t have those days? There will be missed date nights and fast food nights, but it’s not the end of the world. Eventually, we will find a rhythm and what works for our family. Things will never be perfect, but they will get easier.
So now, in the last 6 weeks of my pregnancy, I am happier, and less stressed about whether or not I can deal with one kid screaming for a new toy and the other screaming for boobies! I’m happier, and able to bask in the fact that I am bringing another person to love and nurture into our family. Instead of reading up on how to survive life at home with baby number two, I’m reading reviews on baby slings, monogramming everything in sight, and just waiting on baby’s pending arrival.
And I’m just fine with that. 🙂